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Since I’m working on The Monster Within at the moment, I figured I’d take some time today to talk about Solace and Bastion (and maybe Faith or others. We’ll see how it goes). I’ll be trying to keep things as spoiler free as possible, but if you’d like to make absolute certain that you don’t have anything spoiled, then you might want to consider skipping this one. I’d mostly like to discuss concepts and my ideas, so it should be relatively safe, though.

Anyways!

Solace is an outcast in the town of Glenwood, for (currently) reasons unknown. There are some reasons, and they’re pretty good ones once the story gets to it, but for now they’re secretive. I’ve dropped a couple of hints in Ember of Ecstasy, and there’s more to come soon, too.

The thing I find interesting about the whole thing is that Solace doesn’t know why everyone hates her, though. I really enjoy this concept and theme, because I think it’s easy to relate to that in a lot of ways. Why does anyone hate anything? I have some reasons for why I dislike things, and then I have reasons for why I hate things. I try to reserve really good reasons for the things I hate, but I don’t know if everyone does the same. As to the things I dislike? Sometimes I honestly couldn’t tell you why I do or don’t like something. It’s just personal preference and opinion based on bias and preconceived notions a lot of time.

Solace deals with it, though. She deals with it even though literally almost everyone in Glenwood hates her. She never questions it, nor gets upset, she just tries to become better. I like that about her. I can see where some people might think she’s a weak character or a bad one, because of all these bad things that happen to her, but she doesn’t let it get her down. I think there’s a huge difference there, you know? A character who has bad things happen and then just drops into depression is maybe “real” but not very fun? One who has bad things happen and then strives to overcome them, become better (even if there might not be a better), and just continues to live and try despite the odds being against them… well, I like characters like that.

Solace might seem weak or bad or a bunch of things at times, but honestly I think she might be one of the strongest characters in the story. She continues to try when she has no reason to, and I envy that somewhat and would like to replicate it in my own life.

As to Bastion, he’s in somewhat the same position, except backwards. As the Demon King, no one really hates him. I don’t think they can afford to, as there’s bound to be consequences. At least openly, you know? I mean, the occasional disagreement or dislike is probably fine, but open revolt? There’s got to be a huge reason to resort to something like that, and then the consequences could be huge, too.

The thing is, Bastion isn’t a mean person or a tyrannical Demon King or anything like that. He’s relatively nice, all things considered. He and Solace got off to an odd and rough start, but I think that’s understandable. I mean, she’s a human who was sent as basically a sacrificial bride for the ruler of the monstrous host in Runehaven. In her mind, he’s a monster. In his mind, he’s being sent some woman in order to maintain the peace, and he’s expected to marry her, but where is the love?

(Random side note field trip)
Arranged marriages are interesting in those regards. It’s one of those things that isn’t really applicable to a lot of countries nowadays. On a random side note to that, while I have no reference at hand, I’ve heard that arranged marriages that occur in India (I don’t know if they still do, but these were older statistics I was reading) actually have a high percentage chance of working well, and the two people who become married eventually come to enjoy it. I’ve always curiously wondered if it has something to do with the whole Kama Sutra love-making lesson and teaching thing, at least in part. The Kama Sutra isn’t that entirely, but I really like how it teaches and advocates pleasure in intimate unions, you know? I think other places should teach people these things, because to be completely honest a lot of people are oblivious about sex and how to make their partner happy, which is sad.
(Field trip is done!)

And… they’re trying, you know? Bastion and Solace are, perhaps, not compatible at all. They don’t know much about each other, nor do they know if they can even love each other. They aren’t sure if they have a future, or what their future is, or anything like that. They’d like to try, though. Together. Bastion finds that he enjoys Solace and the fact that she’s curious and unsure. I think he might see some of himself in her in those regards. As the Demon King, he’s not really allowed to be unsure, and the fact that Solace is, and is open about it, kind of complements him in a way. Bastion is strong and caring and treats her fairly when no one’s ever treated her that way in her entire life, which is interesting to her, but also leaves her feeling wary and cautious. Is it a lie? A ruse? Demons have a reputation for being less than respectable, at least according to the human books she’s read, and so you can’t really blame her for her initial wariness.

They work together, though. I think they go good together, too. They aren’t the same, not by a longshot, but the similarities that they have are a great base for a potential relationship, and the differences they have complement each other well, in my opinion. There’s a high chance for love there, blossoming and burgeoning.

Except there’s that whole issue of a human inevitably dying when she gives birth to a demon’s child…

Why do you write in so many different genres and styles?


Hello!  Happy Monday!

I don’t know if anyone is actually curious about this, but I feel like it’s an interesting topic, and one that you don’t see a lot of writers talk about or do.  Mainly, why do I write in so many different genres and styles?

Well, honestly, I don’t think they’re all that different, but here’s what I’ve got so far.  Monster stuff is a big one, and then contemporary romance is the next.  I recently finished my paranormal romance series(Soulless, Heartless, Hopeless), which was fun.  I’ve also got some fairytale stuff, too.  Historical, romantic comedy, noir detective mystery, urban fantasy, and a few more things that probably fit into one of the above but are a bit different, too.

All of these have erotic content, though, so I guess that’s the thread that binds them?  I don’t know if that’s a good reason and I don’t really accept it, myself, but it’s there.

Anyways!  I write them because I like that.  That sounds kind of like a cop out answer, I guess, but it’s just fun to me.  I enjoy exploring new genres and taking my own spin on them.  I think that’s what this boils down to, really.

If I’m being perfectly honest, I prefer medieval fantasy-style stuff.  Or I used to prefer it, anyways.  I don’t think that’s a good mindset to get into with this kind of thing.  I mean, hey, if I just wrote medieval fantasy all the time, I’d have a lot of that, and that’d be great, but… then what?  I know authors who do this and have read more than my fair share of books from authors who basically never branched out from any one genre.  It honestly gets stale and you can tell in their writing.

One random example–and I’m only using her as one because I honestly really love her writing, so it was kind of a love/hate thing, but I’ve got tons of respect for her–is Elizabeth Haydon.  The first three stories in her Symphony of Ages series were WONDERFUL.  I absolutely adored them and I would suggest them to everyone and read them over and over again(and I think I have).  They’re kind of fantasy romance with adventure and action and all of that.  After the first three, though, it started going downhill.  I believe I enjoyed the 4th, but the 5th was kind of lacking, and I can’t say I enjoyed the 6th at all.

After she “finished” that series(because honestly it just kind of stopped, and I’m not sure it ever really fully concluded anything), she started up a YA series set in the same world.  I haven’t read those, but I think that’s an interesting thing to do.  Mostly, the other books were VERY adult, with sex and violence and all of those kinds of adult things.  I have no idea how her YA fantasy books are, but I’m sure they’re nice because she has a wonderful style and tells a good story.

That’s really the thing, though.  She got herself stuck in the Symphony of Ages books and I think it showed.  By the end of the 6 book series, I don’t think she was as into it as the first three books.  It feels like she wrote more because she felt like she NEEDED to write more, and not because she wanted to.  Sometimes this can work out, but I think a lot of times it leads to burn out and disappointment.

I’d still read her books if she continued with the series, but I’m not sure if that’s a good idea on her part.

In the same kind of genre, Jacqueline Carey does an excellent job of writing the same but switching it up, too.  Her Kushiel’s Legacy books start with three wonderful books, then continue on with three more great ones(my favorites of hers actually), and there’s three more after that.  They’re all in the same world, but each set of three switches the main character, and so provides a new and interesting fresh look at her world of Terre d’Ange.  Though, to be honest, I’m not sure the last three worked out so well with that, but they -were- interesting, just not really my favorites.  Or, I’ve only read the first on of there(the seventh overall), so maybe I’ll change my mind when I get to the last two?  I don’t know.

And even still, she has other books that are great, too.  Her more traditional epic fantasy books kind of fit with the Kushiel’s ones, and then she completely throws you for a loop with some urban fantasy/paranormal stuff later on.  I think this is great and a good idea.

So that’s where I stand, really.  For my own writing, I want to write interesting things and continue writing them.  If I’m really into an idea, I think I’ll tell a better story than otherwise.  I want you, as a reader, to love what I’m writing as much as I do.  I do “force” myself to write things, also, but I try not to push it too far.  I try to explore new genres and test out ideas because I want to.  It’s more of a “forcing myself to do this because I want to” instead of a “forcing myself to do this and I hate it,” which I think is a key difference.

And, honestly?  I think it’s turned out well.  I never liked contemporary stuff much before, so I rarely wrote it, but I wanted to try one.  My best friend isn’t really into reading anything fantasy and she sticks to just contemporary stuff when she reads(which isn’t a ton, but she does read a few books a year), so I wanted to do it for that reason, too.  I wanted to write something that she would want to read, so I wrote my Billionaire’s Ultimatum series.

I didn’t really like it at first, truthfully.  I didn’t like it because it was HARD for me.  But, on that same note, I think it became a much better story because of that.  It made me think and decide on different things and try out new ideas and a new style of writing.  I never liked first person point of view much before writing that, either, but I thought I’d try that out, also.

Now?  I like contemporary.  I think The Billionaire’s Ultimatum is a fun story and I’ve received a lot of good feedback on it, so I think I probably did a good job writing it, too.  I didn’t like how hard it was for me to write it at first, but I got better with practice and I really loved the idea of the story itself, so I kept up with it.  It’s different, it tested me, and overall it was fun and a good experience.

The same with the Soulless series, too.  The same with most of my stuff, honestly.  The only thing I can’t really get too into is the gay shifter story I wrote, because it was just kind of difficult to really get a handle on the idea, but I think it turned out well.  I’d like to write another gay male story in the future, or at least maybe bi-curious or something.

Anyways!  I write in these different genres and styles because I like them and I want to try them.  I don’t think any of my stuff is so far out there that you’ll be absolutely appalled if you see it in my catalogue along with something you’ve liked, either.  I mean, some of it seems pretty far out there, but it’s still me writing it.  I have standards and a general style and I promise to try to never disappoint any of my readers with sub-par, worthless junk.

Sometimes you just want to try something new, you know?  Sometimes it’s easier to get eased into that new thing, though.  If you like my writing, you’ll know generally how I write, and so it’s a nicer process trying something different as opposed to having to find a completely different author that you’re unsure about, and then reading their stuff, too.  I know how much of a turn-off that can end up being, where you want to try, say, a science fiction book or something, but you end up finding the one that’s super confusing and weird and you have no idea what’s going on.  Then you think you hate science fiction!  And, honestly, I’m not actually a huge fan of science fiction, but I absolute love some of it.

It’s good to try new things sometimes.  And maybe to take slow, baby steps, so you don’t get overwhelmed.

That’s the reason I do what I do, at least.

It’s Normal to Doubt Yourself (Weekly Sale)


I think everyone goes through phases of doubting themselves. You never really know, right? Are you doing the right thing? Could you do something better? What if you’re wrong?

Maybe it’s a depressing topic, but I think it’s an interesting one, too. That’s also the mindset I used when I started writing the Monster Within series.

Drop of Doubt is the 4th story in the series, and it’s also the one I decided to put on sale this week. I know it might seem a little odd to have the 4th story of a series on sale, but I have a reason for that, too. The 1st is permanently set at $0.99, the 2nd and 3rd are $2.99, and the 4th is currently $0.99 until the end of the week. Overall, if you want to grab all 4, it’s only going to cost you around $8. All four parts are close to ~220 paperback book pages in length, which is longer than a lot of romance novels nowadays. You’re definitely getting your money’s worth.

Saying that, the Monster Within series isn’t finished yet. There’s more to come for Solace and Bastion and their story is one that’s really close to me in a personal sort of way. Yes, they’re just characters, but I’ve put a lot of my heart into them and some of the themes I wanted to explore are ones I’ve had to deal with on a personal level. There’s a very large amount of emotion put into these stories.

They are fantasy stories with demons, goblins, ogres, wisps, angels, elementals and all of that. I understand that’s not everyone’s thing, but I tried to make it nice and accessible. I didn’t go too overboard with the magic stuff. If I had to compare it to something, I’d say it’s similar in vein to Brent Weeks’ Night Angel Trilogy(though not quite, but they do explore some similar themes and ideas now that I think about it). Brent Weeks is a great author, too. I really respect him and I love his writing. He doesn’t really write romance, but if you enjoy interesting fantasy stories with a bit of spice sometimes(not often, but sometimes), then you should check him out, too.

The Monster Within series is about doubt and hope, learning to trust, finding a glimpse of happiness and holding onto it as tight as you can. It’s about finding that one person who accepts you for who you are, no matter what, and is willing to learn and explore the world with you. I really think it’s a wonderful story.

I’m tearing up a little here because of how emotional this story makes me. I have a lot of doubts sometimes(a drop or more), and sometimes I doubt what I write. I doubt if anyone will enjoy something and I doubt if I’ve written well enough. I want to do better, always, and maybe it seems like a silly thing to admit here on this blog post, because, who cares, but there’s a point to it.

Drop of Doubt(and the Monster Within series as a whole) is somewhat of an autobiography of sorts. Not actually since I’m nothing too similar to any of the characters, but the emotion behind them is real.

Which, I think, is interesting! Many writers are afraid to put too much into their writing. They don’t think they can, or they are scared, or whatever. I don’t know the reason. It’s hard, though, it really is. But if you want to read that kind of thing, which I think is interesting and I think a lot of others might find interesting, too, these stories are definitely for you.

The fantasy, monsters, and all of that are a part of them, but the real story is about emotions.

Drop of Doubt

Drop of Doubt is a Fantasy Erotic Romance novella and will be available for $0.99 until February 22nd, 2013 at these select retailers!

Amazon | B&N | Kobo* | ARe | Smashwords (Use Coupon Code: QP65X )

*Kobo is lagging behind in price changes for some reason. I went ahead and requested they do it again, so hopefully it’ll be changed soon. If you prefer their shop, I apologize for the wait!

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